I have a secret...

So many things to be grateful for. Three years October 8th, I said yes to a better me. For so long I thought it was selfish to put myself first. My family, my kids, those around me, others needed things more than me, etc. My husband would always try to get me to do things for myself. I always shoved it off because others needed it more than me. Or so I thought.

Then I went to a Dr appointment with a sinus infection I’d battled with over a year. Only to realize how far I was from where I wanted to be physically, emotionally and even mentally. As a mom and wife, I just wanted to take care of my family first. I realized more about what I needed to do but questioned how to get there. I tried many things and it just felt like a yo-yo effect. Gain, lose, gain, lose....etc. I was tired and not much energy.

Life brought us back to Michigan and there was a process getting back on our feet. Thankful for all who helped us. I treasure those moments. In those moments I found my weakness. I really believe the Lord put an acquaintance from my Pampered Chef days in my life. I thought I was getting PC tips but instead she shared a gift of health with me. Seriously felt like the key that unlocked the chains holding me down.

I’ll be honest...I had no idea what I was up against. We are our own worst enemies. If anyone will stand in our way it’s us. We are our worst critic. When we take one step forward, we often beat ourselves back two steps. When we gain a mile, our thoughts knock us back 2 miles.

So three years ago, I started unlocking the many chains that held me captive. Not only have I been set free of 43lbs and roughly 50”, but mentally and emotionally I feel like a new person. I also feel like I have a closer walk with the Lord.

So much was running through my head and tearing me down. It wasn’t until I started changing my mindset that the way I thought of me, who others thought of me, ok in my own skin and so much more really changed my perception. Another dear friend despite how the honest moments felt coming my way, I treasured. Sometimes you have to be torn down to rebuild. That process was challenging and messy at times.

I’ve always wondered what the Lord’s Will for my life has been. More often than not, I felt lost and uncertain what I needed to be doing. What gifts the Lord has for me and how to help others.

Now, I know what it is. It’s to have a servant heart. It’s to help others rise above their circumstances and be the woman/man God has called you to be. It’s to lead the pathway for many to follow.

With much Grace and Mercy, I will continue to pour out my heart and soul to help others. My life is changed forever and I am forever grateful that someone cared enough to share their secret with me.

Now it’s my turn to share it with you, IF, you are open.